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Thursday, August 19, 2004

Are you READY YET!

So hopefully my wisps will get to read this post... and blogger will be behaving for me.

So be it. I took a nap today, for two hours. I thought I was going to have to work today, but she hasn't called me yet, so I don't know. Perhaps later, which would be unfortunate. Our neighborhood is having a nice little ice-cream social, and get together. I hardly ever go, but it's nice.

The weight of the world is so great some days. Today I have a hundred things that prey upon me, and a hundred more I can't remember. I end up just sitting and watching my brother play splinter cell... a game that is far more entertaining to watch than to play. Ah well, so be it.

I enjoy that idiom; "So be it!"
A strange sense of the fluid and wise, also the tired, overwhelm me when that phrase is appropriate. It's like meditation...
Meditation is a great gift we humans have over many other creatures around us. The ability to expand our individual existence.
Perhaps my wisps would enjoy some guide in meditation.




When you meditate, kneeling in a silent room or anywhere at all.
Take a deep breath, let it out slowly, and close your eyes. Relax your body, concentrate on breathing deeply into your diaphragm.
Then become aware of yourself. Do not try to grasp all that you are at that moment, merely let all that which constitutes 'you' be there.
Breathe, let your き circulate, feel your き move through you.
Now cup your hands before you, above your lap. Imagine you are holding a cup of tea, imagine your hands are a cup bearing tea. This tea represents all your daily experiences, all your stresses and excitements. Everything that is loose and churning in your conscious and subconscious minds.
Now, within you, peer down into the dark tea in the cup.
Examine its contents. Realize the things that are a part of your life. Perceive that each one is real and valid, and now sinks below the surface, verified. Make sure that everything up in your head, has now drifted to the tea in your hands.
Now empty it - pour it down beneath you.
You will now realize, that which you are, is separate from event, yet separate from the void. You are in a balance, floating above the dark waters that churn below you, but still existing whereas the void above you does not.
Your balance is precarious, as you kneel upon the upturned teacup. The water is not still beneath you, it never will be. But you need not be concerned with it, in truth, spending any more time on the waters below would upset the balance, and send you toppling into the depths.
Above you is the void. To focus on the void is very difficult, and can sometimes be dangerous to your mortal body. Indeed; when wrapping yourself in the void, like pulling down a black silk sheet over your head, you can lose touch with the mind and the body that are you... because in the void there is nothing except essence...
To do this will also upset the balance you are trying to achieve.
Now that you have accepted the boundaries of your existence, perceive the teacup. It is beautiful, but it is not you. So allow it to slip beneath your thoughts as well.
Now you are alone, the real you, separate from events, from stresses, from noise or pain, sorrow or anger... your き and your soul now rest and grow.
New ideas may form in the blank canvas before you, ideas that were being held back and smothered by the chaos in your mind.
Do not try to shove these away, for that will only upset the balance. Simply acknowledge them, and allow them to drift along to the water below.
Time has no meaning in your space, pain, reactions... nothing.
Breathe deeply, feel each muscle in your body, each bone, each channel of blood. Feel your heart move in unison with your lungs, feel the electricity that you are.

Now simply exist, without the exterior world.
It is beyond words.

Soon, or in time, you will feel that a great balance has been reached. Sense the existence of that which is around you. Accept back in the void and the water, expanding your consciousness beyond your body.
Now sense the room around you, sense the life of all that is in the room. Sense the sound again; sense the energy, the motion, the breath of all around you.
Once you have done this, you may relax. Allow all your once-chaotic thoughts and emotions to come back into you. You will find them chaos no more. Some will have left entirely; others will now be logical and useful to you. Many will still be an enigma to you, and that is okay.
Breathe deeply,
and open your eyes.
You are alive, and you exist in balance.
Things around you will have different meaning, and you will have found them differently. Accept this, and peace will be about you longer.







So how about some intriguing aspects there??
Hah, I didn't expect to write that. Ah well. It was a gift to me by my spirit.
Enjoy, and balance be gifted you.


き = chi = energy

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