Wow.
Wow wow wow.... those moments, when life just hits you...
I was reading this blog of a freshman that gets posted on the UHDS website here, and all those little things freshmen worry about came rushing back, and all of the sudden I felt old.
One of my residents just said "You're the best. I just don't know what I'd do without you!"
Those things are important.
I want to be the Senior RA since our last one just vacated the position. It feels wierd to admit my ambition, and I may or may not have a chance at it, but for once I'm making the choice to try for something I want and not be ashamed for trying. I think it's silly how I've always been so scared of these things. Right now I'm not so much worried about not getting that - I can handle the word NO. But what I am worried about is how the rest of the staff might see my wish, if they would think it's completely ridiculous, and scorn me. But I just have to take that risk, because it's a great opportunity to take a step up and out. So yeah... that's cool. I guess.
After this week is over, I think things will be a lot easier. But I'm suuuuuper worried about my Math midterm, because I'm having trouble keeping up. Mostly, I'm stressed and that makes it difficult to get myself to just sit down and study. I'm coming up with new, more forcible habits for my studying, because when I get to my room, I never get anything done, so I need to set rules and stuff.
Also, my BIG PT TEST is in four weeks. Exactly a month from friday. So I really need to be running every day and worst, I hurt my quad or something. So yeah. I need to lose weight so it'll be easier to run and... yack. I've already lost 6 lbs since I got here, so that's not too bad, and I haven't been gaining/losing/gaining/losing here, it's been pretty steady despite what I expected. But you can tell I'm stressed, because all I want to eat is fatty sugary stuff. Happens when I'm stressed. I'll just have to watch that. Oatmeal seems to be working well, as well as the early dinners again, unlike over the summer.
Wow, all those things. I feel almost numb, just from overload of senses. Hopefully I'll survive this week, and then I'll be done for just a little while.
I really want to go running today. I got a cool issue of runner's magazine in my awesome care package from my mom. It had lots of good tips and interesting information about shoes and other things. Made me want to just run like 5 miles. Which I will try to do tomorrow. If my leg is any better. I think I strained a muscle. It sucks.
I want to try to run for at least three miles every day, minus break days. It would be really great. We'll see. PT makes it hard, although my pushups really need some work for some reason. I lost all my strength. I'm so lazy about m'pushups. Though there's something wierd with the angle recently, so maybe I just need to re-train my brain. MEH.
Anyhow, I should get to my math.
<3 the wisps
I was reading this blog of a freshman that gets posted on the UHDS website here, and all those little things freshmen worry about came rushing back, and all of the sudden I felt old.
One of my residents just said "You're the best. I just don't know what I'd do without you!"
Those things are important.
I want to be the Senior RA since our last one just vacated the position. It feels wierd to admit my ambition, and I may or may not have a chance at it, but for once I'm making the choice to try for something I want and not be ashamed for trying. I think it's silly how I've always been so scared of these things. Right now I'm not so much worried about not getting that - I can handle the word NO. But what I am worried about is how the rest of the staff might see my wish, if they would think it's completely ridiculous, and scorn me. But I just have to take that risk, because it's a great opportunity to take a step up and out. So yeah... that's cool. I guess.
After this week is over, I think things will be a lot easier. But I'm suuuuuper worried about my Math midterm, because I'm having trouble keeping up. Mostly, I'm stressed and that makes it difficult to get myself to just sit down and study. I'm coming up with new, more forcible habits for my studying, because when I get to my room, I never get anything done, so I need to set rules and stuff.
Also, my BIG PT TEST is in four weeks. Exactly a month from friday. So I really need to be running every day and worst, I hurt my quad or something. So yeah. I need to lose weight so it'll be easier to run and... yack. I've already lost 6 lbs since I got here, so that's not too bad, and I haven't been gaining/losing/gaining/losing here, it's been pretty steady despite what I expected. But you can tell I'm stressed, because all I want to eat is fatty sugary stuff. Happens when I'm stressed. I'll just have to watch that. Oatmeal seems to be working well, as well as the early dinners again, unlike over the summer.
Wow, all those things. I feel almost numb, just from overload of senses. Hopefully I'll survive this week, and then I'll be done for just a little while.
I really want to go running today. I got a cool issue of runner's magazine in my awesome care package from my mom. It had lots of good tips and interesting information about shoes and other things. Made me want to just run like 5 miles. Which I will try to do tomorrow. If my leg is any better. I think I strained a muscle. It sucks.
I want to try to run for at least three miles every day, minus break days. It would be really great. We'll see. PT makes it hard, although my pushups really need some work for some reason. I lost all my strength. I'm so lazy about m'pushups. Though there's something wierd with the angle recently, so maybe I just need to re-train my brain. MEH.
Anyhow, I should get to my math.
<3 the wisps
posted by Elysia @ 21:16
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