My least favorite time; Sunday nights
I hate them. It's supposed to be 'your time' still... but no, there's that constant countdown click to that moment when you put down your head into your pillow and suddenly it's 0530 and you have to get ready for PT.
If that were it, I suppose that would be ok, but it feels more like my life is the ocean, just staring out into the expanse, and all I can see is the next great wave coming to crash down over me. And I know that I survived the last one, and I had the lull between waves to catch my breath and rest... but I see the size of the wave and part of me has given up already.
I slept till 4 pm yesterday, and slept in today, and took another nap, so basically I haven't gotten a weekend. I paid the price for stretching my last week out, stealing time from where it didn't belong. I saw someone today and I felt like I hadn't seen him in weeks, when in reality I had seen him just four days ago or so. It was strange.
I need to relax, let it go. I'm capable of doing PT, and my classes aren't all that difficult.
I've been having a little trouble doing my SRA stuff though, and it's making me mad. I have a couple projects I'm supposed to be working on, and a new RA to train, and none of them are getting done. I am going to go to bed soon now and hope that when I wake up I am rested and have the energy to take on the day.
My friend Jeff, he told me of this really cool idea he had, and I can't wait to get it all worked out so I can do it.
Basically, you put the camera in the same place every day and take a picture of yourself, and as the days and weeks and months go by, you can see all the little changes in yourself that you normally lose from your continuous conciousness.
I think I just figured out a way to set it up in my room.
Well, may your sleep be restful, and your life be worth living.
If that were it, I suppose that would be ok, but it feels more like my life is the ocean, just staring out into the expanse, and all I can see is the next great wave coming to crash down over me. And I know that I survived the last one, and I had the lull between waves to catch my breath and rest... but I see the size of the wave and part of me has given up already.
I slept till 4 pm yesterday, and slept in today, and took another nap, so basically I haven't gotten a weekend. I paid the price for stretching my last week out, stealing time from where it didn't belong. I saw someone today and I felt like I hadn't seen him in weeks, when in reality I had seen him just four days ago or so. It was strange.
I need to relax, let it go. I'm capable of doing PT, and my classes aren't all that difficult.
I've been having a little trouble doing my SRA stuff though, and it's making me mad. I have a couple projects I'm supposed to be working on, and a new RA to train, and none of them are getting done. I am going to go to bed soon now and hope that when I wake up I am rested and have the energy to take on the day.
My friend Jeff, he told me of this really cool idea he had, and I can't wait to get it all worked out so I can do it.
Basically, you put the camera in the same place every day and take a picture of yourself, and as the days and weeks and months go by, you can see all the little changes in yourself that you normally lose from your continuous conciousness.
I think I just figured out a way to set it up in my room.
Well, may your sleep be restful, and your life be worth living.
posted by Elysia @ 19:58
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