Wait a second....

For the first time in a very long while, I had a day that wasn't a sucker punch.
Nope. Unlike most of the days for the past month, today I didn't hate my life.
I didn't find out that I had failed my final PT test and lost all my army family and financial security.
Today I didn't find out that my boyfriend of 9 months broke up with me and neglected to mention it to me until all my friends had seen on facebook before me.
Today I didn't find out that I had to change my career and my entire life plans.
Today I didn't find out that once again, the treatment didn't work and the doctors still don't know what's wrong.
Today I didn't find out that my feline best friend of 20 years has died.
Today I didn't find out that no matter how hard I try, I failed at running.
Today I didn't find out that 3 hours of training a day still isn't enough.
Today I didn't find out that all my efforts training were wasted and now I have terrible grades.
Today I didn't find out that my life gets harder each and every day, as it has for the past several months.


Today something went right for me. Dr. Bernieri has accepted my request to be my mentor for my honors thesis, and has invited me to take part in assisting his research group. I get to do research! If I work as hard as I think I can, then I should be rewarded with steps that take me to grad school to get my masters and doctorate...Maybe I'll become a great psychologist after all!
Now if only I could sleep. Too bad I'm super hyper and also paranoid about someone messing up my brand new garden area. My poor little seedlings in their greenhouse, with nothing protecting them from potential jerks who want to mess with my stuff because they can. Lame. Hopefully they'll be ok.
Ugh... I'm too excited about tomorrow and friday... but if I don't get sleep now, I'll die tomorrow with my 12 hours on campus.


Lava lamps are really cool.