For Valentines Day, I wish...

That things could go back to the way they were two weeks ago.
Sunday, I lost the friendship of two people I cared deeply about, I also lost the friendship of someone I put my trust in, because they betrayed me. I lost two more friends through this whole mess, and hurt another person.
I didn't eat for two days, I almost had to leave class yesterday to get my tears under control. I didn't sleep till yesterday afternoon when my body crashed with the flu.
I have lost at least five people.
I hope never in my life do I have to feel this way again.
I was crashing so hard, I had to cut a piece of my heart away. Now there is a numb void, but at least I had half a salad and slept.
Be careful who you trust. In fact, trust no one, at least not close enough that they can stab you in the back. Love, yes. Care, absolutely. But keep who you are very separate from others, and never indulge in secrets.
So for valentines day, I would like to take it all back. But you don't get a wish for V day. Just some bad chocolate and a bill.