Some more thoughts. Because that's all I have sometimes.

So I was thinking that it's wierd. At this moment, I suddenly have the energy or emotional wherewithal to do something. I feel like calling my brother. But it's 0030, so that would be mean.
I had a really hard day keeping my emotions in check. I suppose I should just spend some time meditating each day. But I don't think I have the focus. Maybe I should try anyway and work towards it.
I didn't have any energy. I didn't go to two of my classes. Bad. I've missed enough this term, but then again, I am still recovering from being very sick and some hard shocks to my system. I hope I can sleep very deeply tonight, and really rest knowing that I have nothing to stress me tomorrow if I want, and then to paint tomorrow, or just read, or sleep all day. I will do my best to believe that life has thrown me some very hard knocks, but there is a balance in the universe, and some of those hard knocks are making up for all the past good fortune I have had, but it hasn't all been a piece of cake, so I believe there must be good things coming to me soon.
I have to believe in that.
I will have a St. Patty's day party I have decided. Even if I just sit here and ... I dunno, listen to Celtic music,or Flogging Molly, or whatever. I will toast to good fortune ahead, and making my own destiny.
I kinda want to stay up all night. I've been spending good time with my rezzies, we played some ddr, and we'll watch a movie.
In fact, I'll just go do that now. Take a quick shower and make them start watching.
Ok. Well, believe in the goodness of life, because if we all think hard enough, it just might come true.
Your luck for today
Today is good for luck it seems,
and very good for business schemes.
Your Fortune -
A life that's given to serious things,
No sentimental side,
brings slavery to business cares,
A king your nature does hide.
- Someone seeks revenge for an imaginary wrong.

I swear, straight off my fortune stick. Ok well. Like I always do, I'll pick the good from the bad. I did have a little scheme today, so we could hope that that won't backfire. And I need to not let work get me down. And I kinda do feel that the wrong is imaginary. I guess I hope that the revenge has been exacted, and that she will realize that the wrong isn't what she thought it was. Ok. No more on that track. I decline the fight I know I will lose, emotional battles with myself.
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